Classes and Reading

I am feeling kind of bad about my actions last night. I spent a huge block of time just watching TV. I could have stopped after about 2 programs, but its like an addiction. I had all the best intentions to get to Snap, but I ended up watching TV until I was too short on time.

I had so much studying to do that I could not make it. I did get all but one reading assignment done and I feel so much better about that. I was starting to stress. I ordered this book from a used textbook site, but it hadn’t arrived yet. There was nearly 100 pages to get through and I was thinking that I would have only tonight to get to it. I made sure to give a good review for the merchant. Now I only have about 30 pages to go over for tomorrow, then its on to Mondays readings.

I do have several journal questions to answer by Monday. I figure that I am going to just post them here. If we have to hand in the journal, I will print the posts and tape them (or staple them) into a notebook.

We all received a “journal” on the first day of class and were told that the average person writes 200+ pages in this course. Now those are hand written and in composition notebooks, so they are not the 250 word pages you get if you write in 12 point font, double spaced; or the 500 words for the normal typed page, but still…

I would love to get to Snap tonight. I am thinking about going right from work (as I have all my workout stuff), but I might be hungry and it will be hard to wait. It still the plan.
Yesterday my infusion set was not working right and my blood sugars were just climbing and climbing. Of course, I didn’t have a spare set, so I went through most of the day well over 250. My highest reading was 378 at 4:30.

Blood sugar related lethargy must have been a significant factor in my TV watching. I took two huge boluses of insulin and by about 8:30 I was ready to do my readings. Didn’t even think about that factor until now.

Wow there are way too many fragments in the text, but I am not going to correct them. I will say sorry and move on.

Sorry

These longer days at work are a bit disconcerting. I have had lots of trouble staying the full 8 hours, at least in the past few weeks. On days where stupid emergency crap came up, I was do drained by having to stay that I was very close to calling in the next day. The lack of vacation time was a significant motivator. I know I will need all the time I can get, and it is going to be vital to my success in school. Big projects, tests, special assignments, and library work are going to require vacation time. Plus I really need to have a store of time for when I just can’t get my sorry s$$ out of bed.

This program is about mental health and the ironic thing is that it requires you to sacrifice significantly (or your own mental health) to participate in the program. If I were a “just graduated” unmarried, no life, no job, no mortgage, no family, no responsibility, student this program would be a piece of cake. Of course this assumes that I have the experience and knowledge of someone who has been in the real world, held down a job, worked as a professional, raised a family, been a spouse, own land, made mortgage payments, car payments, credit card payments.